I'm tired. Really tired. So tired in fact that I'm drinking a coke for the first time in over a month as I write this. I "need" the caffeine because after work I have a potential client meeting and I want to be bright-eyed and bushy-tailed for that. The thing is, I don't even like coke that much. Except for the URGENT need to pee, I'm fairly content drinking water all day. I've been running myself ragged all week with work and activism and as a result I've already had a few beers and a few cigarettes this week and I haven't meditated at all. My point is this: In order for me to feel successful at the fitness challenge I have to devote a certain amount of time to myself. Also, I'm realizing that feeling successful is slightly different than being successful. I'm still keeping the journal, eating healthy (for the most part), and getting in some really great workouts but I feel like crap. My mental exhaustion is making a situation that should be considered success feel like failure. Maybe I'm too hard on myself. Maybe I'm just cranky and in need of a nap.
Anywho, I'm hoping that this weekend I can remotivate myself. I'm making great strides. On Tuesday I ran about two miles which is another personal record. I've definitely got my eye on a 5K for the fall. I know I can do it too if I can just get a little better at appreciating what I've accomplished instead of focusing on where I've failed.
On to week 6...
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